In fact I really want to write a lot.....bt let see how much I can write.....
words are not flowing through my fingers......to the keyboard.......I think I'm in a writer block......
yesterday we cooked fish curry....oh it was a failure for yesterday......and we hav to cook other dish to eat....
anyway today we reconfigured it ......by nyt it was fine......
yesterday my father called me.....and asked me nothing...he jst sed hello.....and a wazzup....I sed I'm fine....thts it....less than 3o seconds of conversation.....
the day b4 yesterday I callled them and talked for a while.....bt for yesterday I thnk my father wanted to listen my voice.......
I thnk he misses me more thn my mom......
all the tym in my past...me and my father havnt talked much......there is always a connection....bt very less face to face conversation...
usually we talked a lot in phone...and during the long drives wen I used pick him or drop in th station.....
I thnk in my past I didnt care about him as much as in the same way he did to me....
and nw I feel sorry for myself...for not to do tht....
sometimes I'm bad guy.....dnd knw y.....
He never sed anythng to me which is opposite...bt he didnt support me at all.......
The decision to come over here was a bit awkward for my parents....especially fr my mom.....she's bit worried about me all the tym,,,,,,
whenever she calls me..the questions are wheather my health was ok....about cooking,,,eating...and ofcourse about gym.... nothng about MSc BISM..in a way thts good.....
I dnd know what the hell I have written here......its time 2.47 am may 20......
MJ:o)
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