for past two days I was workng in the McD.....it was tense, intense, bt still enjoyable......
yesterday I talked wth my parents....today one of my frnd told me in online..tht my mom is very much worried about me over here...... the food, studies, health....she should be worried.... she is my mom...no worries....
anyway....I re- started my pencil drawing after more thn 2 years of gap.....and I'l try to continue this streak for some tym......let see how does it work......
ya at the end I'm an ordinary guy with some special characteristics that I made for myself to make me feel good......
I think being truthful is the best way to keep things working. some where I quoted tht education is never gonna end...learning process continues untill a person die..... and also I quoted tht we have to learn from my mistakes......bt I didn't learned from the past and I'm still making the same mistake of not learning from my mistakes....
I dond want to be honest anymore...It always made me very bad guy.......
we are fated here to pretend........thts wat I thnk.....!!!!!
MJ:o) ---- --- -- - NOTE: hey frnds..if u dnd want to listen me anymore...pls inform me..so tht I can remove the ID from my list of blog readers......pls do tell me......I dond mind If so....
I'm too lazy...thts the only way to work hard in the end......laziness is the secret of my hard work........
after 1 week i returned to gym and worked very hard frm 7 30 to 9 30....pecs, arms and of course absss...... aftr the wrk out..literally starved.....so th dinner was too heavy.........I ate a lot.....feeling bit sleepy....
in th past twodays...i was busy in doing nothing........jst passing the tym...bt in this mean time...I regained my drawing capability......after almost 2 year....I made somethng......
I thnk I'm an average artist wth large scope of improvement...and I decieded to continue the drawing streak.....this is th only plus point tht i hav got,,,,,and I dnd want loose this frm my fingers...... soon I'l post my drawing over here ......
today my parents called me and reminded me to study over here..hi hi.....they are my parents.....and atleast they should say this to me....
I got a mail and it tells me tht...the author of the mail really likes me.......anyway I'm glad to know tht there are some people who really likes me,,,,cheers on tht....
wat to say.....for past two days...... I miss my frnds back home...dnd know th reason.....bt now its fine......one of my frnd's father died on last wednesday.......may b thts the reason...I was not there to support my frnd....anyway there are a bunch of good frnds to take care of him.....
Life is not gonna b the same always.....it will change face at any time.....and we hav to face it at the end.....
In fact I really want to write a lot.....bt let see how much I can write.....
words are not flowing through my fingers......to the keyboard.......I think I'm in a writer block......
yesterday we cooked fish curry....oh it was a failure for yesterday......and we hav to cook other dish to eat....
anyway today we reconfigured it ......by nyt it was fine......
yesterday my father called me.....and asked me nothing...he jst sed hello.....and a wazzup....I sed I'm fine....thts it....less than 3o seconds of conversation.....
the day b4 yesterday I callled them and talked for a while.....bt for yesterday I thnk my father wanted to listen my voice.......
I thnk he misses me more thn my mom...... all the tym in my past...me and my father havnt talked much......there is always a connection....bt very less face to face conversation... usually we talked a lot in phone...and during the long drives wen I used pick him or drop in th station.....
I thnk in my past I didnt care about him as much as in the same way he did to me....
and nw I feel sorry for myself...for not to do tht.... sometimes I'm bad guy.....dnd knw y..... He never sed anythng to me which is opposite...bt he didnt support me at all.......
The decision to come over here was a bit awkward for my parents....especially fr my mom.....she's bit worried about me all the tym,,,,,, whenever she calls me..the questions are wheather my health was ok....about cooking,,,eating...and ofcourse about gym.... nothng about MSc BISM..in a way thts good.....
I dnd know what the hell I have written here......its time 2.47 am may 20......
TODAY i called my parents and friends....and its nice to talk to them.... some times I feel y I'm not missing them.....bt sometime its good not to miss them,,,,,
WHEN I vame here on jan 11..the firsr one week was horrible...It was not bcoz I miss my family frnds..bt it was bcoz of the new environment...no permanent place to sleep.....On tht 10 days....I was literally weeping inside...and i could feel my heart beat.......dnd y I'm writing these stuffs ryt now.....
then atlast i got a room....frm tht instant I regained myself....into a new configuration,,,, I cooked to survive in the frst..bt now I'm cooking for eating.... gym, cooking, new frnds, new environment......all these stuffs helped me to survive..in a way....
when I was coming over here...I was not expecting any real frndships. During the engg studies I have got a lot of real friends, who helped me to realize myself.....
They helped me to change my life, to know myself who am I...and wat I'm capable of.....
for tht I proud of my frnds...bak home...
Bt nw I can say one thng.....I have got the same affection from here....experiences, relationships tht will further help me to refine myself......to a better persona...
In ther facebook once I quated like this "I'll never allow University, to interfere my education" even though it was for fun.... now I'm realizing that..its true.... I learned today too...
learning process is not going to end for a person untill he dies... and I'm learning...from people, from life, from experiences, from friends, from everyone.....
Am I going off course....a bit philosophical..........
yesterday i slept on my computer in the mid way of my work ...I remember till 4.48 am....nxt thng i remember is 11.00 am ...i'm sleeping on my laptop......
bak home the election result published.....bt does it make any sense to me.. dond thnk so..???
today I went to gym I worked for my shoulder's.....now its paining....bt i love this pain... came bak.....then I finished my work...
then I made some pasta.....it was good.....
we watched a movie online.." angels & demons"...in the staring it was boring..bt it was a worth watch movie....
hey .... Today i went to marble arch McD....got all the letters to start my work. Then the lady over there , Christina told me to go to the archway McD to meet my manager.......and I went there where I'm supposed to work...its a good place....hope so.....
then I came back to uni.....tried to complete my course work.....bt i did my half work....bt still it was one of the memorable days in my life...job, frnds, rain.......and the rain was too good for me....
although I enjoyed a lot of rains, since I came from the country of monsoon.......bt still after a long tym I enjoyed this rain......very much......whenever I'm here in LOndon...I wont forget this rain....
rain rain come again, please come again another day........
I was busy in doing stuffs other than in my blog.....anyway...I thnk I got a job on wednasday...in McDonalds as crew member......The lady in Marble arch McDonlds told me to come over on there fr training on friday.....
and u know one thng...ne my flat mate also got the job there....we are startg jo traing together....basically she filled my online appication......and we both are going to work in the Archway McD.....
Now my real test is going to start....coursewrk, job, gym,food,frnds,,,,,,,This will test my skill in management,,,,,, and I have to keep a proper balance between everythng, since I dond want to miss any moment wat I have lived b4.....and I wont allow anyone to miss me too.....
In the morning itself i went to the gym and i got my mobile back.......
after reaching home me and my friend cooked patsa.....wth egg and vegetables....it was a complete xperiment....I hope it was a succesful experiment.....successful in a sense we ate that without any problemmmm.....It was so good.....
In the gym it was good...after a long time I worked really worked hard for my pecs....literally i burned myself...... I noticed one thing in the gym....some people are noticing me........anyway its good to get identified and getting the appreciation without interacting......let see wat's next.....
One of my house mate from Vietnam left to her home yestarday...so the room is vacant now....So I changed to that room....so a little bit busy in trasfering the stuffs....I have done tht in 1 hr....basically I have got nothing other than some jeans, t shirt , some documents....so it was too easy......
Again I'm single ....in my room....b4 this I was sharing my room wth my frind....but most of the tym...any one of my house mates will be there...wherever my room is located ...there is a good possibility of changing that room into a common room .... every member usually uses their rooms only for sleeping......Its good to be with frnds...rather than being alone in the room....
I got a call frm one of my frnd and made a paln to meet .......bt due to some reasons the plan is dropped....Bt its not a big issue for me......and I hope there wont be any worries on the other end...and i hope my frnd is fine......
anyway me and my frnd palnned to go for a drink.....and I agreed to go with him....bt then I cahngedmy plan.....drinking is good once in a while..not always....i need to restrict myself......
our movie buffering is almost done.....
i need to start sme studies........frm 2mrw......Lets hope to start....ha ha ha...
I just returned from the 'Hendon' pub.......still my head is not steady.......its good....
In the pub me and my friend talked about some serious things that makes a person to be strong , determined,positive and to be enthusiastic....in life....
I think I have very little experience in life compared to them and i have a lot to learn........today I learned a lot from my friends over here in my home.......
hEY one of my friend gave me a watch......and he insisted me to wear tht one......usually I dond wear watch...from past 10 years.....I think i need to change and wear the watch.......Bt I think watch doesn't suits in my hand......
Yes...I forgot my mobile....in the gym!!!!! This is the first tym I just kept my mobile other than in my pocket...in the stand...while I was working on my legs.....
and becoz of the high intensity I forget my mob...after reching my home I realized tht I missed something....And I rushed back....bt the gym was closed at tht tym.....Luckily I found a security and He told me to come in the morning......at 9.00 am....how can I get up.......on sunday...?
anyway...I always forget to remeber the things which must b remembered always.....I need to change tht..... god help me.......whatever I have to......
on thursday the lecturer made a situation tht i really fell in sleep....and dnd remeber anythng on the morng session......literally it sucks....
I was bit dizzy aftr the class.....amd my body is not following me......and i cooked some fish......and atlast i went to gym wth half mind , body.....
and afetr reaching there....I worked so hard tht I got the pain right there itself....and i pushed a little bit harder on tht tym......it worked.......it was a good stress out.....came bak and applied for different jobs fr a long tym until 2.30 am....
On friday in the morng one of my frnd called me..and i woke up ....went to the bank, post office ....
came bak and started applyg for the job .... \ .....oh for get to say one thing.....I started to learn spanish wth the help of book, online ...let see how does it work?
went to the library.....had some serious discussion about life, ethics, experience, brilliance, intelligence.......Even though I havnt contributed much...bt I learned a lot......means a lot....thanks for tht....
I feel happy and proud .......most of the tym its hard to open up their mind, heart and past of a person,,,cituated far away by distance, culture, values and a lot of factors .....bt at the end it helped the person...and I'm helping myself....to b motivated, to b enthusiatic....
am i going off line...I thnk so,,,,
Pls help me to find out the difference between brilliance and intelligence????
Today we have got a seminar.....we have to present some topic...and me and salis wth vaida did tht...bt not the way tht i wanted to be....it was annoying....watever may be the point our tutor have got the counter point......we managed to fight back....bt still it was jst fine.....
a lot more arguements will be there in this seminar soon......And I'm waiting for tht...let see...
And in the lecture.....it was fun....basically my plan was to go there and get a good sleep.....bt situation changed my stategy....which eventually lightened the lecture session wth some interesting topics.... And in some point I made a statement...which literally changed the course..and I became famous....
Bt i dond have any intention by saying tht....I was jst answering....in a good way... bt at the end it was good.....
at last not the least had some really good tym wth really good frnds.....
came to home..went to uni..did some deltoid work outs after a long tym.....and ofcourse abs....
eventhough it was a really busy day....it was a good day.....and also I have got a new configuration wthin me and in my sytem.....it works well too...
yesterday was a good day......went to uni..to salis's home...some special cooking....
today.......I got my laptop......and salis khan helped to sort out most of the things......
and I'm coming back to my previous best configuration......with new design, implementation and with new technologies.....
had some special chicken cooking by salis khan with little resources but the output was awesome......literally stuffed completely......good day becoz of food and becoz of results.....
yesterday i thought tht the sunday will be as ordinary as a day itself....althogh i got up 12 noon...I managed to rech to my frnds at tym. becoz they called me to join them....
then we met in oxford circus, then to london bridge, tower bridge, waterloo, london eye..... at the end of trip it was a good day.......for me...
at the end I couldn't reached someplace which I wanted to be for someone but...its ok..... for sometime or may be for a long tym my frnd will be fine...lets hope so.....
whoever came into touch with me today...I think i have done well to make them happy.....for a while....may for a long tym.....
may be thts the strength of mine...I'm always ready to give the positive charge to others......which I'm lacking in these days...bt I tried to give my best....
after the long day...I came back...and my roommates buffered a movie 'sunshine'.... oh my god....such a confusing movie .....I'm still confused........
wat a day..... awesome.....got up in the morning...went to Middle'shit' univer'shity' library......I have to use the PC over there because I miss my laptop......
came bak at 2. 30...had some food....went to gym.....after a long tym i trained for my biceps.....this is jst my second tym arm workout since I have been here in the gym.....I love to do biceps training... but it looks odd .... there are 2 new ladies in gym.....first timers......quite good......
did some job application reching home......and met some frnds online.....thts the one and only good thing happend today for me....and I miss them...a lot.....
waiting for my good days...may be tommorow,,,,jst being optimistic...
writing is a good habit i thnk....u know after writing wats in my mind ....it feels good....
my laptop is not in working condition.....by wednesday it will be fine....
thursday was a quite ok........bt a bit miserable day......regulation, law......#$*#.....
a bit stressed after the uni,,,,,,bt i didnt went to the gym to release tht bad energy...it stayed with me....through the nyt...
today i went to a shop to meet a guy for the job...bloody hell he was not there....i waited for him from 10.30 to 1.00..no sign of him......in a way it was good.....I dnd want to work on tht place..... the shop is good...bt the place looks bit odd for me.....
now I'm in uni.....applying for jobs.......bt i thnk it will be a tough task to complete this term successfully......
in the end I'm going to pay the fee soon...the second one..after tht my bank account will be clear almost......
hopefully everythng gonna b fine ...oneday..........
