its been a very long time tht I have never been here in my blog..its nothing but laziness....
a lot of things were moved so fastly and somethings slowly throgh my mind.....work is going well..nothing much headache...the only thing you need to look after is ur health...by taking food and staying fit....
I'm mentally fit too...but sometimes somethings in our mind makes us bit vague and faint.....we need to tackle tht at anyway...and I did almost well ....
last to last week I got some very good fever....During the nights my full body was shivering and paining..but in the morning it was ok....so I did my usual stuff..going uni...gym....and all....
I didnt tell anythng about this to parents...its not a good thng to tell them...
But all these could be done to ur frnds back home...and I did so wth awarng of not to tell the matter to my home....
my study is very slow.nothing special...on dissertation...hav to keep up the good spirit in near future....
there is a plan..but its not sure......
I want to go home on this january after my dissertation......also I dnd want to go home.......
may be it will be 2-3 weeks...but still confused whether to go or not to go.....my parents really want me to come there....I wanted tht too....going there in my place..in my town...in the shops...meeting ffriends..playing voleyball....I wanted to do watever I have missed in these days....but economically it will hurt me if I go there.....ii wanted to use my own money to fly there live ther and fly back....I hope I can do tht.....
sometimes U thnk tht everythng is going well....and in the other second u will feel tht nothng is going right....sometimes I really get angry...especially in these days....I dnd know....This is frightening me....becoz I was a very very short temepered person 2 years ago....and I changed tht deliberately...by being a listner not being part of the conversation.....I thnk I was successfull too...may be people like me becoz only of this nature....when I'm angry...even I hate myself being me....so how is it possible for the others to like me...its impossible....
so if by writing about my temper, may be I can get back to my lisening mode, and everythng will be smooth.....hope so....
everybody is selfish I thnk...including me.....thts the biggest problem....also thts the biggest solution too....
mj
