hmmm

long time......yes long time.....it doesnt mean tht nothng special.......everythng special.....happening....

sometimes.. no..most of the time I'm lazy .....

I came here in Jan 12 ...and on july 12.....I'm half an year old here in UK......yeah its been more than 190 days over here.....wat an experience.....mentally its tiring....its making the most out of u...squeezing..pushing...to an extent to live....

its been an entirely different living conditions compared to back home....
its all you ....and u are the only one who deciede which is ur way....and it must be feasible...and its hard...

when I tried to get an admission over here in UK .....basically it was a escape ...because I was depressed literaly.....

when i got the admission in Demontfort University , Leicester....I was bit relieved.....after getting the admission, on gettingg the offer letter....I informed my parents about my plan........They thought tht I was joking......
at tht point itself My mom literally shocked.....she never exected me to take a big decision lke this........to go for an overseas education....and my mom at the end gave me a half yes.....bt it was hard....
My father didnt sed anythng special as usual...so cool more than me...ha ha ha.....

after one week or somethng the result for the Airforce officer post published....and I got selected....I was amazed.....
now i have two option....big decision very small time to take tht step....

I was supposed to enrol on september 2008....and the SSB(selection) was on september-october...
The airforce officer post was very good......at the end I dropped the UK programme....
starte dpreparing fr the SSB....physically I was fine to get through....and I got a book to prepare fr the selection..i started well.....contacting different people from IAF tht I know.......
I gained confidence...tht I can get throgh....

I got the letter to report....and they have given the requirements.....and I noted about the age criteria.....and I missed tht for 2 mnths....
SO I called them. and talked them about my issue.....the officer told me tht U can take a chance....bt the probablity of taking me in is very less...he frankly said tht to me....

fucked up......I lost completely....

I lost both the option.......the only way tht I can refresh myself is friends and gym....I started traing very hard....two times a day.........stilll I was worried much about me on tht time.....
I trained very very hard to beat tht pain...of loosing...and it made me much harder...and softer......and more patient....after sometimes I decided to go fr the higher education......

from tht point evrythng was so fast.....in tht process I drained out...everythng was done by me.....yeah..my mother and father helped....bt the processwas so rigourous to get the statements , bank loan, and stuffs.......

and got the visa stamped on 10 th of jan and I came here on 12 th...
this is my story,,,,,and the story goes on....continuing......
and will be continuing fr a while....

I knw I have always gave my mother tension and worries about me.....only to mother....not to my father.....He's not bothered about worrying me...thats wat I thnk.....bt not really..he also have worry about me..bt he didnt showed tht .....
I'm not gonna say tht my parents are the worlds best parents.....
bt I knw one thng.....more thn me caring about them..they care about me.....
thts true fr evry parents...

sometimes I miss my mom's dishes which is not good..becoz almost everytme she miss somethng important....and tht imperfections are remarkable.....and I remember them always.....


MJ ...signing off

long fooodie day.....

I started my day as usual........I went to uni........then had some nice food.....
I made a new friend today......
Thn to gym hard core circuit training.....then I went to meet my friend.....

I got the result of the course wrok the web one.....tht i havnt worked much...and according to the work I have done the mark is too much.....I have got 62 marks out of 100.....thts too good.....for me....

anyway....thats fine.....

anonymous again...

on tuesday I had a day which is not good and not bad.....had some really nice work outs...for 2hrs.....
thn we went to the brent cross for some shopping......
I got some stuffs.....again...at the end of the day it was a good day.....
from tuesday itself I was preparing fr a nice day.....
bt in the morning itself it became another exciting day..wth a little bit of cooking.....

And I got some really nice book..which i was searching for....

deception point...by dan brown
digital fortress..by dan brown...eventhough I'm bad in reading.....The deception point have some kind of grip which is interesting.....

anyway had a job day..wth lot of run, stress....and many bloddy thngs.....anyway I'm getting some money..thts fine....

had some food.....which was heavy...I made tht heavy...bcoz I ate a lot......

and the intersting thing was....i went to my home and came back..yeah..via o mu home ..my college..my mom' s home... my fathers home......my layground......the place we used to sit wth our frnds........and many more.....

was interesting..really......this is not the first time I'm visiting via google earth...bt this time it was good..... dont knw why....

MJ:o)
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anonymous

xms are over ...CWs are over...now only dissertation.......bt no need to thnk abot it for some time...

had a busy last week......ryt after the xm itself my work started.....

on sunday I went to east croydon to meet my frnd....my flatmate ....

wen I was in croydon..I shared the rom with him....

so on sunday we had a long chat...nice food......had a nice sunday,,,,really good sunday......

monday .......nothng special...becoz no need to rush to uni......
so I jst slept until 10...thn to gym 2hr work out....drained ,,,,,,,

thn to library...frnds...........had a very good day at the end...........

MJ :o)
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hmmm

however...It was a good day...................bt never in the way I have expected...

something was really missing,,,,really...its troubling me.....wat to do...?

MJ

wat a movie,,,,

braveheart...... i jst watched th movie...bt this is not my frst time..... i watched this long time ago......

bt still th movie is so gripping and worth watch.....again and again.....

anyway......see u later

MJ

really fucked up

really fucked up ...really ..

in a saturation point...due to these freaking laws....

:o(